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Kindness

I see a match in my thoughts

Clear as the days ago

A little flint to spark the crash

To open the eternal flow

The kindness in the nation

Gets hidden beneath the steps

Caress the fallen sparrow's wing

Sleep upon his breast

Jump like growling victims

Closed up within a cube

Take the thought that does rhyme

And pull it through the tube

I prefer to act upon the thought

At a later time of hope

Push it out into the world

Let it roam around and mope

The kindness of a caring man

Gets hidden behind his eyes

Close my own to try new vision

Warm hands cannot tell lies

Within this land there are rules

Each different from creation

He thinks at night in frozen breath

He tries another station

The kindness of a stranger

Changes vibes into suspicion

Focus hard on fallen days

And travel through the mission

The Secret Tree

I find that when I land on new ground,

My feet lift up and down.

Angry voices have woken up, sleeping overtime.

Resting is not a sin if it fits today's wind.

Speak in foreign chimes to be decoded;

And respectively lash out at the speaker.

Over apples pour white rice,

Yellow pictures crowd the walls,

Nobody sees the times you lied.

Mountains spreadeagle picture perfectly,

As painted in a storybook;

Crisp and green, dark and naked.

Sister, why'd you never come?

I waited at the secret tree,

Where on snow filled cracks spirits slept;

But of this vision I found none,

So off again I run run run.

Oh my gosh the storm did triumph,

So I don't know why I did come.

I Saw a Past Lover

I see the paper before me

I cannot read it

It haunts me as it lies

"I should" is what I hear

"Why"? is what I cry

Comfort I do need

Tonight's state is depression

Tonight is becoming the norm

And I fight But I am weak

For the fight means to hold To hold and not go deeper

Which I do not

But nor do I get better

And it is suppose to create

Create something

I feel lazy

I feel depressed about being lazy

I feel insecure

I feel depressed about my insecurities

I have no money

No money because I was foolish

I have a boyfriend

I love my boyfriend

My boyfriend loves me

But I feel like a burden

He does not make me feel like a burden

I do it to myself

I saw a past lover at the bar tonight

He wanted me

He wanted me because I was there

It was not me he wanted

He was lonely

Anyone would have sufficed But maybe that is not true

Maybe he is in love

In love with the idea of me

Today I find I understand him

I understand why he runs

Part of me feels like running

Running from my lover

Not due to lack of love

Due to it being so hard

So hard to change

And I need to change

I am depressed

If I change I won't be depressed I hope

I pray